Doing a little rereading after putting together the preceding summary. I think this bit from Tequila Lullaby
--which is set just after Afghanistan--really is the heart of the Tony & Charlotte friendship. Also, it always makes me weepy."When I sleep, I remember. I can't drink enough to stop remembering."
"So you don't sleep."
"Yeah." He wrapped his arms around her. "So I don't sleep."
"You can sleep tonight, Tony love," she assured him softly. "I won't leave, I promise."
"You love me, right, Birdie?"
"You know I do."
"I mean, you love me for me. Despite me being me."
Laughing, she held him close. "You just realizing that?"
"I've always known, but maybe I didn't really always believe it." He sounded so very tired. Once again, Charlotte was struck by his fragility. He'd spent three months in hell, and he looked it. More than that, he radiated it. "They think I'm crazy, the board, the world. I'm not, Birdie, you know I'm not."
"I know, Tony."
Slumping against her, he whispered, "I should be dead, just like Yinsen, just like Jimmy. How come I'm alive and they aren't?"( Collapse )