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03 January 2016 @ 03:54 pm
That Star Wars Movie  
I've been wanting to post since I saw it, but wanted to be less emotional. Now it's been a few weeks, I'm giving it a try.

I am so angry!! I loved the movie, even with third generation of whiny Skywalker brat, and I'd gone in spoiler free, so felt totally sandbagged at what happened. They killed Han. I started to cry, and I didn't stop till the movie was over. I don't know where fandom hangs out these days, but all I heard from people was how awesome the movie was. Am I the only one who was/is upset? I remember how angry fandom was when they killed Richie, over 'Last Knight', so many other instances. I thought there'd be some reaction. Maybe I don't know where those places are, but I feel totally alone in this. I don't ever want to see the movie again, and I'm not sure I want to see the sequels. I wish Han hadn't even been in the movie if that was going to be the outcome. I was so excited, as I was watching, that this was the sequel I'd been waiting for for so many years. Boy, I feel stupid. If you loved the movie, that's fine, I just needed to vent. I've been bottling it up, and just had to finally let it out. Nin has a theory about Han not actually being dead, but I don't want to get my hopes up, because I, at this point, am coming to believe you can't go back. Star Wars was a huge part of my teenage/twenties, and I think that's all I get.

Yeah, not less emotional.

(I even did a private post testing the cut, so I didn't screw it up)

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Becca: Screw Canon from snarkelbeccadg on January 4th, 2016 04:01 am (UTC)
There's enough real death out there -- I don't need it in something that was making me happy as I watched.

Exactly. I feel like I say it a lot, but I can't help it. That's a simple truth for me. I feel strongly about it even if the character that dies isn't one I have a deep emotional attachment to, and I've loved Han Solo since I was five years old. As soon as I heard the spoiler there was no way anyone was getting me to spend 10$ to watch Han Solo be murdered.

It really was such a good movie. I think that made it worse.

The possibility of it being good enough to make it worse is part of the reason I'm not sure when-if I'll finally see it. I know I don't want to spend 10$ on it, that would feel waaay too much like I was rewarding them for destroying my childhood, but I also know I did eventually watch Highlander: The Source which had very little redeeming value. It was a pure exercise in "The things I do for Methos." I guess right now it's a matter of time. I have to see how I feel when I have the chance to see The Force Awakens without paying that much money to do it. At least I've spent enough years writing fanfic to be prepared to reject it if it doesn't work for me at all. :-/
Ith: Japan - Winterithildyn on January 4th, 2016 10:44 pm (UTC)
Maybe if he'd died saving someone, or I don't know. I think the manner of his was just as upsetting.
Becca: The Crow Real Love by beccadgbeccadg on January 6th, 2016 09:37 am (UTC)
I understand what you mean. It reminds me of an exchange in The Lion In Winter between Richard the Lionheart, and his brother Geoffrey--

Prince Geoffrey: My you chivalric fool... as if the way one fell down mattered.
Prince Richard: When the fall is all there is, it matters.

How they killed Han matters, not just that they did it at all.