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08 June 2014 @ 12:46 pm
We buried her last night, with a sapling I bought on Friday as her marker. It's called a London Plane Tree and it's supposed to be a fast growing shade tree. If it makes it, and grows, I'll always have a visible memory of my Sparrow cat.

I feel bad that her last days were spent at the vet, and all those tests, and $500 later, there was nothing to be done. She died only a few hours after the final visit, Nin coming home with meds and special foods and fluids that we never had a chance to use. If I'd known, I would have let her spend her last days in peace at home.

I have layers of grief that just overlap each other. When I took Sparrow out of the carrier she loved as a bed, and laid her on a fleecy blanket she liked, I just laid next to her on the floor and cried. It all got mixed up with my grief in losing Tammy. Burying her last night, was also twined up with Tammy, the lack of closure, the unexpectedness of her death. I like to think Sparrow took my love to Tammy in heaven and that Tammy has her in her lap with all of her kitties.

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bugeyedmonsterbugeyedmonster on June 8th, 2014 08:00 pm (UTC)
Sorry for your loss
cincoflexcincoflex on June 8th, 2014 08:29 pm (UTC)
I like to think Sparrow took my love to Tammy in heaven and that Tammy has her in her lap with all of her kitties.

That is a beautiful way to think of it, and combines your love for both of them so well. I hold you in my thoughts and send you virtual hugs, dear. (((hugs)))
layla_aaron: Lost Girl BFFs 2 (me)luscious_words on June 8th, 2014 08:30 pm (UTC)
That's a lovely way to think of it. *hugs* I'm so sorry for your losses.
riverotter1951: Heart Cloudriverotter1951 on June 8th, 2014 10:31 pm (UTC)
Waiting at the Rainbow Bridge.
fkastrider: fireflyfkastrider on June 9th, 2014 02:30 am (UTC)
I too like the idea of Tammy having another kitty to support her.

Saw my first of my little friends last night while taking the dogs for a walk. Now I just need to see them in the backyard.
spockside on June 9th, 2014 03:34 am (UTC)
I'm sure the two of them are thinking of you, my friend.
I_llbedammned: lifei_llbedammned on June 9th, 2014 10:56 pm (UTC)
oh dear. I am so sorry for all the loss you have been experiencing lately.
Robertarobi_travels on June 15th, 2014 02:29 pm (UTC)
Ith, the thought of Tammy with Sparrow is beautiful. I agree.
tpena19: Yellow :Itpena19 on June 16th, 2014 07:22 am (UTC)
That is so sad, my condolences. *hugs*