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13 July 2014 @ 02:01 pm
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I'm still around, just feel like I'm in a fishbowl, looking out, but not able to touch. We did go to SoCal for my birthday (early) to take advantage of the 4th being a paid holiday. Met up with Jen and Dave, did Disney, the beach (the ocean won.), and some very nice dinners. The whole day at the beach was a humourous disaster, but memorable. Had a lovely birthday dinner at Crystal Cove (there's a few sunset photos on my Instagram), but got emotionally overwhelmed after dinner thinking of Tammy and I ruined it for everyone. Sunday we had a quiet day at Disneyland - it was a blackout weekend for SoCal passes and it was divine! Pretty much walked on to the rides. Nin and I actually made it to midnight. We credit the pot of Jasmine tea we had late afternoon at Carthay Circle lounge in the California park. If there was a way to not have to drive thru the Mojave Desert, we'd go to SoCal more often in the summer. But the heat of the trip is unrelenting, and the car A/C really can't keep up.

My brother built me a pond/waterfall in my yard, which I love, monsoon season is well under way, though the storms keep skirting past us, and I can't wait till Autumn! This weekend kinda disappeared amongst not being able to sleep properly, pain, and just general mehness. I'd hoped to write, but the desire/ability seemed to disappear with Tammy's death. I guess we'll see what the next few months bring. I feel bad as I had two WIPs going great guns, then screeching halt.

I'll try and post more often. I am reading here, just, you know, fishbowl.

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asher63asher63 on July 13th, 2014 08:50 pm (UTC)
Welcome back. I am very sorry about Tammy.
patpat_t on July 13th, 2014 09:08 pm (UTC)
Glad to see you back, I like the idea of a pond/waterfall in your yard.

Things will get back to normal for you. But there is no time limit and you have to work through it.*hugs*
Chris: Having a Bad Daysharpiesgal on July 13th, 2014 09:57 pm (UTC)
*hugs*
bugeyedmonsterbugeyedmonster on July 13th, 2014 10:42 pm (UTC)
Sending hugs.
spockside on July 14th, 2014 12:17 am (UTC)
And we're listening! ;D
davidlallendavidlallen on July 14th, 2014 02:59 am (UTC)
We had a great dinner at the beach, even during the drive home. We all miss Tammy. I hope it will get easier with time.
fkastrider: fireflyfkastrider on July 16th, 2014 02:10 am (UTC)
My little friends have been around the neighborhood for the past 3 weeks. It is good to see their lights flickering in the darkness. They even come into the garage when I am out there working to check on me.

Even though I never physically met Tammy, I still miss her. Her LJ remains on my wall of blogs to check and I still want to read her. Then too, I miss Lex and its been two years since his fighter ran out of fuel when he couldn't see to land.

I hope you have a better day on your birthday tomorrow, Ith.

{{{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}}
spockside on July 16th, 2014 03:46 am (UTC)
Happy birthday, friend!
I_llbedammnedi_llbedammned on July 16th, 2014 08:21 pm (UTC)
I am glad you are able to enjoy some time with friends, even if the bitter sting of loss still was with you.

I'm sure when your mind is more cleared the desire to write will come back.
holde_maidholde_maid on July 16th, 2014 09:08 pm (UTC)
Happy Birthday, Ith!
Queen of Sassgard: loki jane hornsstarhawk2005 on July 20th, 2014 06:48 pm (UTC)
It's good that you're getting out, at least. *hugs* And give yourself some time to grieve! It's OK, and everyone takes a different amount of time. Don't feel bad just because other people don't get it.